“Part 7: I Am Going To Commit Suicide in Two Weeks and There Is Nothing You Can Say Or Do To Stop Me From Killing Myself!!!” by Ralph Zuranski
12-22-07 8:35 AM fourth response
Dear Ralph,
You should be receiving two book in the mail. Both books are Thought provoking. I hope you enjoy them and find some tidbit that will assist you in your endeavors to inject some good in this world.
As for me it is people like you that make me sad that I have to leave. I was once like you. I tried to make a difference. Back in the seventies I started a food program to help who ever needed it.
I not only helped with food but what ever else I could do without actually handing out money. I involved my family as much as I could to teach them not only the joys that come from helping others, but that all peoples have commonalities and in some trick of the Gods this is how we are able to celebrate the differences.
(I have found that in many things the spiritual is a mirror image of the physical). That was when I lived in the city.
I had to move from the city in an effort to save my family. I wanted to get my wife into a new environment and my son who somehow found his way into NeoNatzi racist group into a new environment. So I moved to a country setting hoping it would make a difference.
It did not.
They only hated me more for it.
I continued to try to be a good force in the world I worked with churches in various food programs. I also volunteered at a local hospice.
I would sit with people who were chronically ill or dying so their families could have a break or do whatever they had to do. I must say I found that to be a privilege. Most recently I was working on becoming certified as a music practitioner for the chronically ill and dying. Thanks to my wife once again I was crushed in my heart and unable to continue.
I have had a couple of injuries to my lower back and now after two surgeries I am left with chronic pain and nerve damage. I have been forced to apply for Social security disability. That goes against everything I am.
I ‘m sorry I have gone on way too much about myself and my woes.
Anyway I hope you enjoy the books.